Limbo isn't a bad way to describe my life. I feel like i'm too old, but not old enough. I feel like i have insights, that i understand things. But i know i don't have all the answers. I'm old enough to know that the people i'm surrounded by now won't give me the answers i want. I hope i'm not undervaluing my friends when i say that sometimes i feel like my concerns go over their heads. But i'm in high school and i want deeper meaning to my life, but when i try to talk to people about my views on life, i never seem the get thought provoking answers. Nothing really pushes me to want to know anything and i really want someone to question me in a loving way, a way that will make me want to be my best, instead of just pissing me off.
I guess i just want to find someone like that. I feel like my biological clock is set ahead of everyone. I'm thinking about things and wanting things that people shouldn't even want for a few more years.
...but then i feel like a jerk for thinking that i'm somehow more special than other people.
too many thoughts in my head :/
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