Kakorrhaphiophobia- Fear of failure or defeat.

I'm so done being scared. I'm afraid to live, afraid to succeed. I'm afraid that i actually might get something right. I'm afraid that my life will change, and that i'll be who i actually want to be. I don't know if i'd be able to deal with it. I've become so used to who i am i don't know if i could be someone else, even if that was the person i really wanted to be. If i lose weight i'm afraid that i still won't be pretty, or it just won't matter like i thought it would. I'm afraid that people will reject me. I'm afraid that who i am is boring. Uninteresting. I hide behind my insecurities because i'm afraid that even if i do become my best case scenario i still won't be good enough. And what will i hide behind then?